Om Namah Shivay

                                                              ॐ नमः शिवाय

Amma, its your birthday today. You are the one who is eternal.  I do not know what a birthday means to you. But to me who is just a moron your birthday is a birthday , an opportunity for me to celebrate. The significance of celebrating your birthday is that I pray a lot to you , to ask something to you for you. If I say 'happy birthday Amma' it sounds so foolish. I am wishing happiness to one who is always in a state of 'bliss' which has much deeper meaning than just happiness. I find that I am so short of words when I want to talk to you, pray to you....even to wish you. I am wishing happiness to You who is a giver of happiness to the whole world. Yet I know that your happiness lies in our happiness, because you are a mother who cares and loves all her children good or bad equally. 

Every passing year increases age of your physical body and it also shows. I am always worried that I might lose you one day. Actually I don't want your birthdays to come. I want the time to stand still. I don't know for how many births I must have been waiting to see you and to be in your arms. But now that you are with me I don't think there is anything else remaining to be achieved at least in this lifetime. You have given me so much that I had never even dreamed of. I have always taken from you and you have always given me. I find myself so poor when it comes to 'giving you'. What can I gift you? My hands are empty. Nothing is mine that I can give you. All I can give you is my tears, just tears and only tears. But I don't know even the tears are mine or not. My whole body is yours, even the life that is in this body is given by you, so then how can the tears be mine? 

So once again I am at the same question. What should I wish you and gift you on your birthday? I can only pray to you. Amma, please don't leave me. not in this life and not in my future lives. Always be with me. Always keep me close to you. Help me to remember you always in good and bad times.

Om Amriteshwaryai Namah.